Can someone help me through email or something please, I think I'm becoming a pedophile!?

Well, this could be very serious because it's one thing if you're sexually attracted, but you're not and you like them emotionally? Have you had any girlfriends in the past? If not then your mind is so lonely and childish (you haven't matured into the dating stage yet) you want someone who is younger and fun. Try dating girls your age, and be more outgoing. You'd be surprised that lots of girls think they're weird to.